So the basics: I'm 36 (? I think? I can never remember my age, is that a bad thing?....I was born in 82, so 92, 2002, 2012, there's 30, plus 5 bring us to 2017, I haven't had my birthday yet, woah wait! I'm only 35!!!!), no wait, I'm 35. I am married to my high school sweetheart Jordy, and we have one child. I call her Squishy Kid and will refer to her as that or SK or A in this blog.
I have struggled with mental health for years. I was essentially date raped by a friend of my roommate in university, and spent years thinking I had done something wrong. I never got help because I felt so ashamed of my behaviour. Years later, I know that he was wrong, not me. I am overcoming this skeleton in my closet.
Depression first came to stay with me for a longterm visit after I had my first ectopic pregnancy in 2006. My husband and I were so excited, we had been tracking cycles, and on major body cleanses to ensure our baby only got the best! I found out I was pregnant on my drive home from work one day (I'm a school teacher...well, was.....am-ish....we will get to that!) and we were so excited! It turned out to be an ectopic pregnancy and I was devastated. We'll go more into that later though. That's when Depression first came to visit. It was a long visit and full of lies and deceit. As always, Depression is a big fat liar!
In 2016 I was diagnosed with PTSD, Generalized Anxiety, Depression (again), Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), and Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD), which is similar to OCD but more thought based than action based.
Right now I am off work, getting help weekly from my Psychologist, whom for this blog I will call Dr E. or E. I also saw a psychologist who was an OCD specialist and I will call her Dr P, or P. I see my doctor every week, usually Thursdays or Fridays, and spend my weeks following her assignments and logging my thoughts. This has been very helpful. I will expand on everything in this blog!
I also intend to share the projects I have been working on while I have been off work. My own coping mechanisms have included knitting and sewing, and lots of both! I will share some of my projects here and how they have helped me. Some have been great as something in my hands to fidget with other than my fingers themselves, others have been whole projects dedicated to a specific anxiety or OCD symptom.
I am excited to get sharing and hopefully this will help some of you in your own journey. And maybe, this will help some of my family and friends to understand me a bit better....maybe...
I also foster kittens. This is my own form of therapy and I love it. You will for sure get to see some of my babies!!